Scared

Hey there.

I’ve not posted anything forEVER, and this is an off-the-cuff thing.  Normally I write my posts, then edit them.  Leave them for a few hours or days, and then re-edit.  Tweaking.  And even then I still get typos, so goodness only knows how this one will turn out…

So.  I seem to have turned into a scaredy-cat.

I made the decision that I had to go back to work (for no other reason than my mental sanity) back at Easter.

Have I updated my CV?

No.

Have I applied for the jobs that I really liked the look of?

No.

Have I tried to work on my craft projects that could possibly make some money?

No.

If I don’t try, then I can’t be disappointed.

I don’t know where this attitude has come from.  Anyone who knows me in any way would not describe me like that.

‘Confident’ is a word that normally gets used.  I don’t feel confident.  I feel like a bit of a shadow.

Is this a normal thing after being out of the workplace for a few years?

How do you get out of it?

My normal self would just say ‘well, update your CV and apply for some jobs’.

Easier said than done, my friend.

Does anyone else feel like this? Am I the only scaredy-cat terrified of failure?

I can’t be.  Let me know.  We’ll get together for gin and talk about all the things that we want to do, but know will never actually happen.

 

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